For the past few months, I've been plagued by insomnia. After the girls died, and I wasn't working, I got into a habit of staying up really late watching TV or reading until I couldn't stay awake any longer, getting out of bed just long enough to get Maddy to school, then going home and going back to bed. Not the most healthy thing, I know.
Now, I go to bed between 10:30 and 11, but I'm wide awake at 3:30 or 4:00. I'll lay there and endure the incessant chatter in my head, until I fall asleep again for about an hour before I have to get up.
My doctor prescribed Ambien for me way back when, and I've never taken it. After hearing about people who have sex, or drive to the store, or cook a meal, without remembering, it kind of scared me. (Although Craig seemed intrigued by the thought of nooky and an omelet - - typical boys.) I'm was also afraid if I took the Ambien, and I actually slept, what if something happened and I didn't hear Maddy? Or the dogs alerting me to a burgalar? Or a tornado? Or the end of the world? (This would be some of that above-mentioned incessant chatter).
So, I suffer through it for now. I've tried melatonin and it worked a couple of times, but it's not working now. I go back to the doctor in a couple of weeks, and I'll ask him about it then, if I'm still not sleeping. It might be my body adjusting to the Lexapro, who knows? I'd look it up on WebMD but God knows what fodder I'd give my brain for tonight's sleepless entertainment.